Saturday, October 11
So not much has really been going on, basically jus a whole lot of band practice. Its only 6 days until my birthday! Im stoked! Today i got to talk to olly too. And i went to nate awesome DDR party, which turned into a "lets drive around somewhere party" but it was fun and we all wish to kill gavin still. Today we played for Erins party, for bryan. We didn't do horrible at all. We didn't mess up at all, but we didn't have it together, like we weren't really focusing on it. Erinn had alot of problems with her mommy today though so i kinda understand. Today was supposed to be our practice to make sure we had the songs in the order we wanted, and her mom wigged out and said we couldn't practice. So we just winged the order, which made us look really unprepared and we all wanted to just get it done. It was fun, and i did enjoy myself thoguth i wish the people would have got into it more, so we could have felt alittle better lol. Hmmm what else to say. I dunno. Tommorow i have to stay home and clean the house. How cool is that? I told my mom i would stay home and clean tommorow, so i guess i got myself into it. I think im gonna apply at kings. It would be easy to work there. and its close to my house. I need a job, so i can get some nice shit for the band. I have the worst cramps right now, my menstrual cycle is being bad. Aight well lacey is getting tired, so we are going to eat and then go to bed. Goodbye.
Tuesday, October 7
i wonder why p-nut hasn't called. I bet he hates me... i should be the one that hates him. he doesn't wanna have children named after ninja turtles.. just turtles... how lame is it.
I guess im cold. i got some headlights right now .(*theres a vision for you... enjoy *) sometimes i want to shoot people. i get angry. My crib smells like kitty shit. Cuz we have 8 cats at the moment lol. I decided my bed is a sexual bed. it lures people in. and u can't escape cuz its walled in. Its a damn good plan. The dude that wanted to kill me, now talks to me.Isn't that hot. Tim drove me home today. I was sleepy though, so nothing going on there. i guess im a sexy bitch, cuz alot of people say im sexy. maybe i should rename myself sexy. IM COLD AGAIN.
i put my hair up today, and it looks hot and sexy. makes me wanna hump myself. Enough god damn it janae, u r one horny bitch.... see i just noticed im talking to myself.. thats what happens when u get stressed out.
I guess im cold. i got some headlights right now .(*theres a vision for you... enjoy *) sometimes i want to shoot people. i get angry. My crib smells like kitty shit. Cuz we have 8 cats at the moment lol. I decided my bed is a sexual bed. it lures people in. and u can't escape cuz its walled in. Its a damn good plan. The dude that wanted to kill me, now talks to me.Isn't that hot. Tim drove me home today. I was sleepy though, so nothing going on there. i guess im a sexy bitch, cuz alot of people say im sexy. maybe i should rename myself sexy. IM COLD AGAIN.
i put my hair up today, and it looks hot and sexy. makes me wanna hump myself. Enough god damn it janae, u r one horny bitch.... see i just noticed im talking to myself.. thats what happens when u get stressed out.
ben i wanna make ur babys.. 20 of them.
GUYS I HAve A FUCKIN HEADACHE. And Im bored. And im horny, and today blew nuts.
Sunday, October 5
Ok the bitching is done. I suddenly am happy. lol. See What i mean people. Im psycho. I have the moods of freakin pregnant woman. Don't even get any ideas, im not pregnant lol. Today i just chilled with ben as he watched the football game. Actually i just fell asleep, but woke up when he decided he would be a sweetheart and plug my nose. Yea hes a fag lol. Hmm he just left so im bored out of my ass guys. i don't know what to do! Maybe ill go play with the cat :) lol. I actually think i might need to shower. But i dunno. Im starving so im gonna go eat. This weekend was pretty cool. I went to linesvilles gay smelly cow shit ass homecoming dance. Yea there were a bunch of farmers in dresses's. Fun shit. Then we walked to country fair got a cappachino and complained about linesville and went home.
to sum up what i hate in life i just simply hate people. I can't stand people. i can't stand the fact that they don't understand, that they don't care, that they are just a bunch of fuckheads. I can't deal with people, if i could i would never ever meet another person. Yes there a few people i can deal with, but they are not like the rest. I just get so angry with just everything that i can't help but scream and just destroy whatever is in my way. I have so much anger in me right now, and i don't know for the life of me why i feel this. It could be because my mom is a fuckin bitch that treats me like shit. Have u ever been around someone that looks at you like u r shit, and when u try to talk they just glare and say shut up, or threaten to send u away. Yes thats my "mom". She is soo lazy, the only thing she moves for is her cigarretts, or her scummy friends, that like to track dirt in our house, eat our food, and bring along their fleas, and piss all over our bathroom. I can't stand those people. they need a life. Along with alot of stuff like soap and flea shampoo. And i hate how my mom tries to talk to MY GHOST. Shes my friend, the only one that stays along. aww she just called me "hun" . and now "2 seconds and your in your room" how sweet of her. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I freakin can't stand it. she doesn't understand me at all. She doesn't know me, she doesn't understand that i hate people, so she invites everyone to my house, and lets them drive me insane. I wanna go to sleep. but i know i can't. im just too angry. And now im crying. What the shit. See in case you didn't notice people, im emotionally unstable. I mean incredibly moody and incredibly angry, at nothing, yet everything. i love kimmy though, shes cool. We are science and sex buddies. i need hugs and cuddles. and to get away from here :(
wish me luck in getting thru my anger spurts.
wish me luck in getting thru my anger spurts.
